Travel is a spiritual recharge

2nd June 2015: Bali, Indonesia

I am settled into my trip, and oddly there has been a level of ease at putting aside the future awaiting me. I feel a combination between the sunshine, good friends, laughter, activity and the mental exercises completed made this process possible. In all honesty, I have switched my focus from fighting to simply not remaining stuck on thinking about the situation. I still hold a strong belief of being well, and am hoping as stated previously that I am wanting a miracle to occur. If the miracle doesn’t unfold, then it may not be the immediate future, however, I am certain my future destiny is positive.

One of the main points about heading overseas was described perfectly to my friend yesterday. To paint a picture, we had just had a really enjoyable surf and were riding tandem on a motorbike, looking over rice patties and other tropical flora. I then stated to my friend that holidays were essential and were like a spiritual recharge. When thinking about my words, I believe it to be true, and see it as a necessity in anyones life to get away at least once a year. I actually am unable to express how content I feel. Seems a fairly interesting statement to make when bearing in mind the circumstances around me, however, the fact of not experiencing any side-effects for some time whilst being engrossed in such a place leads me to think of the magical powers of spending time in a state of happiness. In addition, my current capacity to enjoy life makes me wonder whether the Mitotane (chemotherapy) is now targeting the intended area. Of course this is all hypothetical, however, I am hopeful it now executes the intended function of killing off the tumour. Add in my surroundings and peace of mind, and hopefully there are positive results awaiting me on my return to Australia.

Tickets have been booked… Indonesia awaits!

31st March 2015: Sydney, Austrlia

Yesterday, I lowered my dose of Cortisol back to 70mg. I would be lying if reference was not made to thoughts relating to drop in Cortisol correlating with a return of feeling nauseous. To my relief, no form of nausea was experienced, and I actually had a peaceful sleep for the first night in many weeks. I am unqualified to suggest a link exists between the slight increase of Cortisol and difficulty with sleep, however, the patterns experienced would suggest the increase had an impact on my sleep. On the basis of this hypothesis, I am hopeful the period of time in Indonesia whereby an increased dosage will be required to maintain my immune system does not lead to difficulties with my sleeping, however, importantly, I need to be mindful of not dwelling on this matter approaching the time or it would be virtually inevitable for difficulty with my sleep to surface.

The booking has been made to Indonesia, and a combination of time with friends mixed with a month on my own is planned. It is inevitable to meet other people whilst there, however, my thinking leading into the time will be to concentrate mostly on time spent alone, balancing my time between surfing, yoga, reading and meditation. In addition, it is hoped the local area will be explored, attempting to gain some understanding of the life of people from the local area. Initially, there was a level of concern about the lengthy period on my own, however, it seems this is all apart of the process, and the combination of time with spent alone with periods with close friends seems perfect 😄