18th October 2014: Sydney Australia
The tide has officially turned, the park was revisited for some exercise, and the opportunity was had to enjoy a night out watching some friends in a band without any nausea or fatigue. The reasoning for the change could be speculated, including reference to the increased levels of medication, the appearance of the sun signalling the imminent Australian summer is approaching or simply adopting a stance whereby I believe my body has recovered from the infection.
I think it is easy to just resign to a belief of contributing all changes to the medication or the body just being better again, however, personally this is very restricted view of life. Instead, all factors needs to be seen as contributing features, including the created mind-state needed to work in coordination with the ongoing medical intervention. It is proposed that my mind greatly influenced the changes, especially the established commitment to think and write only about positive aspects of life. In honesty, it is really the first time in many weeks when I have felt the capacity in completing my daily routine without any nausea or worry about my health, and the point reiterated is that a positive outlook worked in cohesion with the medical intervention to allow this change to come to fruition.
17th October 2014: Sydney Australia
A couple of pacts have been made over the past two days. Firstly, the goal to complete a fast by next Friday and secondly, the need to only be positive for the next seven entries. In regards to the first point, I have found a preferred programme set to complete next Tuesday and Wednesday. Secondly, positivity. Well, I did feel the best I have in a number of weeks, the main question is whether a relationship really exists between thinking positively and how my body responds? To discover if there is a scope for further attention on the matter, examination over a significant period of time is necessary to avoid a degree of stupidity in assuming a period of one or two days is significant information to prove the accuracy of the hypothesis.
In regards to my day, I feel a chain of events should be shared. Noticeable changes were seen in my energy levels as the afternoon approached. Most notably, a lack of mental capacity and an overall feeling of my body slowing down. I had plans to complete for the day, however, opted against pushing through the lethargy to utilise the joy of having no-one around to complete some meditation. I used an app called mindfulness to complete a 20 minute scanning exercise of my body before setting into my own state whereby an hour ended up passing, leaving me feeling refreshed and pleased in not falling asleep (as I have been doing of late). A reasonably well paced and challenging yoga session then followed before I started cooking dinner. Maybe over descriptive I know, I’m just trying to provide a snapshot of how I went from a state of tiredness to one whereby I realised for the first time in a number of weeks I was singing with a smile on my face, accompanied by a feeling of happiness circulating throughout my body. One of those magical moments you wish could be bottled and stored. A completely natural occurring physiological process of pure bliss, costing absolutely nothing and not in the form of an artificial drug with possible side-effects or a period when coming down from the drug. As noted, pure natural bliss. Surely, the very point of existence right there! I am now tapping away before I sleep, feeling a lot less nauseous, pleased with the response my doctor yesterday and excited to continue this feeling into the weekend.